Bonus points if you get the title.
I was not a fan of March. I wasn’t a fan of myself in March.
Not a big fan of myself right now.
I feel like shit.
Not sick.
Just like a giant piece of shit.
Let’s start this over shall we?
This has been a really rough month. I feel like I’m struggling with everything and nothing seems to be going right for me at all. I’m in it deep and every time I think I see the light at the end of the tunnel, something comes along and extinguishes it.
I’m terrible at being open about my problems. I totally own that. No one likes to admit that they are failing. Especially when everyone knows you as a winner.
Maybe not a winner but someone a little more put together than you currently are.
Everyone has such high expectations and when you fail, it’s nothing short of a disaster.
Ok. I’ll admit I’m struggling right now. As I sit and write this I’m on the brink of a panic attack. I can literally feel it brewing underneath the surface and I’m falling apart. I want to just go to sleep but I’m so wound up I don’t think I’d be able to.
I think I need March to end now.
I set out this month to get to decluttering my life and get some cleaning done. I didn’t fully reach that goal but I did manage to do quite a bit. I went through a bunch of old DVDs and video games and sold them off for a little bit of money. It wasn’t a lot but I was just happy to get rid of some of the junk.
I’ve still got a bunch of work to go and more junk to go through but I did the best I could considering how I’ve felt through most of the month.
Whelp, this has officially become the worst-ever monthly wrap up post so I’m going to quit while I’m ahead.
I’m going to go have my nervous breakdown and hopefully start fresh in April.
Good talk.
Well, as Taylor Swift says…”Shake it Off”. You can’t consider it a fail if it’s a work in progress. Decluttering is a lifestyle change…not a simple task like doing the laundry. You’ve already started, so that is a win my friend! Stay the Course!!!
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Slowly but surely getting there. I’ve been having a hard time getting my brain on the same page with things. I actually wrote that post last night before going to bed and woke up this morning feeling a bit better. Not 100% but certainly less anxiety.
Small victories.
Cleaning house has certainly been a challenge. When I moved down to Florida from Boston I came with almost nothing- then over four years managed to amass so much extra stuff! I miss having a small place where this can’t happen!
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I’m honored! Thank you, I’ll have to take some time to think about those questions!
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Of course! Take all the time you need!
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